Wordy Wednesday

So I decided to change the name since I appear to be sharing texts (aka words) each week

This is another moment of pride I've had recently!

Remembering its not all about me...

I think that many people with eating disorders are very self absorbed. I don't mean that in the negative way it sounds. I mean that you (or maybe just me) spend a lot of time thinking about scales, foods, body image etc. All within yourself - and mostly alone

friend wants to get together for a walk? Ugh, what will she think about my thighs

Husband wants to go to the movies? Grr, doesn't he know the smell of popcorn makes me want some

Niece wants to go shopping at the thrift store? F*ck gotta try on clothes!

Most times I'll make an excuse
-sorry pupster and I already walked
-you know I don't like movies
-Hun I already have plans

You know, the norm

But this week a couple times I stepped out of me...

Said niece has wanted a tablet - I've been scouring Craigslist and eBay to no avail - well to no avail until Saturday morning ... 1 popped up on Craigslist for a price I couldn't refuse. A quick email later and I stepped outside my comfort zone and drove the 45 minutes to Worcester to grab her a nice little tablet - ignoring my body that didn't want to be seen. I seriously can NOT wait to see her reaction to her "love you" present!

Another time a friend needed a ride into Boston for a date night with her hubby - they wanted to drink, and know I'm not fearful of driving in the city... Umm okay I'll take you. Knowing that not only did this require people looking at me but said friend was bound to hug me (do people not understand I am not touchable?) but I did it, I survived it and well in reality I'm proud enough about myself to be blogging it!

Both things were instances where probably the average person wouldn't have been phased but I'm not average I guess (is anybody really average? Doubt it!) but overall it felt good to let people I care about "win" over the demons in my head!

+++when was the last time you stepped outside your comfort zone? How did it work out?+++

Haha pretending to cook

So biz http://mybizzykitchen.com/2012/02/26/i-grill-in-winter-so-it-smells-like-summer/ is hosting bsi which I'm pretty sure stands for blogger secret ingredient (or not and I made that up?) but it was potatoes this week and hubster loves him some starch... AND we had company coming over AND I saw these amazing purple (blue?) potatoes at whole foods AND a while ago I went with a friend to a pampered chef party and bought this microwave chip maker (I'm one of those people who feels obligated to buy something and I figured this wouldn't take up much space and there was at least a chance I'd make something).

So here's my submission to bsi potato:

Microwave chips

Ingredient:
1 blue potato

directions:
Slice very very thin (Apparently there is a thing called a mandolin that will do this for you - I thought that was a musical instrument) place on chip maker and cook for 6-7 minutes (I have a shitty microwave) rotating trays every minute or so...

Now if you don't have this microwave chip maker then apparently you can do it on a plate

See here:

http://www.food.com/recipe/uncle-bills-microwave-potato-chips-47195

And again I wasted my money!

When it's done feel free to spray with cooking spray (mine is coconut oil spray) and sprinkle with... I used sea salt and hidden valley ranch dressing mix! And that is how I cook "formal"!

+++have you made chips in your microwave?+++

Friday fill ins

Courtesy of:
http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/

1. I'm feeling LIKE I ACTUALLY SUCCEEDED AT A MOMENT THIS WEEK!
2. I want TO PLAY TO FEEL A LITTLE BETTER AND TO CUDDLE PUPSTER
3. I need TO CONTINUE TAKING THE ANTIBIOTICS EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE ASS
4. I was thinking ABOUT HOW DIFFERENT I AM IN THE WEE HOUSE VERSUS THE OLD HOUSE - I REALLY CARE ABOUT HOW THIS PLACE LOOKS, I HAVE PRIDE IN HOME OWNERSHIP (that's why I am attaching pictures!!!!)
5. I wish THAT MY FAMILY JOINED ME IN THIS EXCITEMENT BUT I GUESS IT'S TRUE WHAT THEY SAY FRIENDS ARE THE FAMILY YOU CHOOSE
6. I'm reading BLOGS AND NO PLACE FOR A LADY
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to A DATE NIGHT WITH HUBSTER, tomorrow my plans include DRIVING FRIENDS INTO BOSTON AND PICKING THEM UP LATER and Sunday, I want to HIKE THE BLUE MOUNTAINS!

And this one courtesy of:
http://f.riday5.com/

1-What significant anniversary will you be celebrating sometime this year?
Hubster and I will be celebrating 9 years of marriage! And what is 9? Ceramic or pottery can anyone suggest what you get a GUY for pottery? I'm leaning towards http://etsy.me/wAUHVm or http://etsy.me/AbE8lX (realistically I'm leaning towards this one because it makes me laugh) but he doesn't have a mustache (but did for a while when he was like 20)
2-In your life, what is today the one-month anniversary of? I have no freaking idea!
3-What is today the one-week anniversary of? Last Friday which wasn't a very good day
4-Sometimes the traditional wedding anniversary gifts seem a bit staid. If you had your way, what would be the right gift themes for the five years’ worth of wedding anniversaries? A trip to Italy
5-Among your friends, who’s been married the longest? I guess Joey and Kurt but I have lots of other friends who've been together longer but have chosen not to marry (which since I think marriage is just a piece of paper I rather agree with)

+++what's your feeling on marriage?+++

Wordless Wednesday

Can I say how amusing I find it that my two last ww were texts?

My friend got engaged - I was so happy!

Friday fill ins

Courtesy of:
http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/2012/02/and_16.html

And...here we go!

1. Finally, I DID A FRIDAY FILL IN ON FRIDAY
2. LEARNING NEW THINGS (this week it was a new crochet stitch) sure takes some getting used to!
3. Dad says: BIO DAD - LET'S HAVE A DRINK. GOD DAD (who I love way more than bio dad and miss him every day) - NOT MUCH BUT HE WOULD SHOW HIS LOVE RATHER THAN SPEAK IT!
4. DIB DAB DOB is my favorite nick name for THE PUPSTER
5. It took a long time, but IM READY.
6. MY SISTER MAY BE THE WORLDS LARGEST PAIN IN THE ASS AND MAKE ME WANT TO STRANGLE HER DAILY BUT SHE LOVES ME AND I wouldn't have it any other way.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to MY REALTOR IS COMING OVER TO SEE WHAT WE'VE DONE WITH THE WEE HOUSE (random, but she will be shocked), tomorrow my plans include maybe going to Boston and Sunday, I want to hike the blue hills with hubster and pupster (it's our redo of valentine's day)


+++What are you doing this weekend?+++

Wordless Wednesday

Typical text to the hubster explaining a walk with the pupster

A lesson learned??

Warning that this post is e.d. Heavy so don't read it if that upsets you!

The littlest things will set me off... And I'll purge. It's nobody and nothing's fault other than my own and I own that. The other day I was fine - nothing happened other than body image (omg I seriously hate body image issues) and I decided I needed to purge (ok brain we really need to work on this) and I did after I did I looked down and my moms diamond was missing from my finger and the ONLY thing I could think was I flushed it I lost my mind. Well I hadn't lost it it'd fallen off in the kitchen (I found it on the floor)

Will I learn? Will that fear keep me from purging another day? I hope so!

+++have you ever lost something very precious? Did you get it back?+++

Friday fill in

another courtesy of
http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/2012/02/and_09.html

1. When it comes time to make a decision, I MAKE IT AND THEN QUESTION IT FOR THE NEXT TEN MILLION YEARS
2. DO WHATEVER EVERYONE ELSE WANTS that must be the rule.
3. Ma says, GOD KEEP YOU TO MORNING
4. I AM SO HAPPY WALKING IN THE WOODS, BUT at the same time I REALLY LOVE BEING IN THE CITY
5. I never saw A SLUSHIE I DIDN'T LIKE
6. PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING IS not a new invention.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to FIXING MY FRIENDS HOUSE, tomorrow my plans include GOING TO A TENTH ANNIVERSARY MEMORIAL, and Sunday, I want to GO FOR A RUN AND FRIENDS ARE COMING OVER

+++what are you doing this weekend?+++

Sleepless night success

So yesterday at 7:00 AM I tweeted about insomnia and that it had won the battle but that I'd win the war!

But that wasn't the whole story... Insomnia may have kept me awake but it wasn't necessarily a bad thing.

You see while I wasn't sleeping I came up with Pretty fun crafts... On pinterest a week or so ago I came across these: http://www.atwestend.com/Catalogue/New/set-of-four-felt-piggy-banks

My heart swooned - however, the price? Not as big a fan... But last night, last night I remembered some felt scraps I had leftover from Christmas presents and I thought to myself - there no time like the present. And so I cut and I sewed and I ended up with two cute little piggies and an owl. Worked out well in the end - a little (okay a lot) less sleep but I got myself one little piggy and my etsy shop got a pig and an owl (and I'm betting after tonight a heart) so I think I won the war (ish??? Let's give my sleep deprived brain this win, okay??)

Side note: I got 6 hours of sleep tonight

+++are you a good sleeper? And seriously how cute are felt pigs? +++

Friday fill in super bowl edition

Another fun Friday fill in courtesy of:
http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/2012/02/and.html

This has been a really rough week for me and I'm hoping for better days soon :-) unfortunately a lot of what makes me happy short term isn't what works long term...

1. Go ahead, there's some SUNNY D ON THE TOP SHELF OF THE FRIDGE
2. HEALTHY MIND SET (or the cutest shirt i ever saw it said "almost not crazy" i die) I'll get that soon!
3. Don't worry, I DO ENOUGH OF IT FOR ALL OF US! You're welcome :-)
4. SURVIVAL IS THE GOAL for the day.
5. Pretty much EVERY DAY
6. PLAY SCRAMBLE EITH FRIENDS OR WORDS WITH FRIENDS with me.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to MAKING PUPSTER'S VALENTINE'S CARDS tomorrow my plans include A WALK IN THE WOODS and Sunday, I want to WATCH THE PATRIOTS WIN THE SUPER BOWL!

+++are you watching the game?+++