I have another blog - I have for the years in between when I started this one (and actually shortly before) and now... So I wonder why I am using this blog again? I think it is because I want to grow and I want to be able to talk more freely and my family (most importantly my nieces) read that blog and so I have to be censored and I really don't want to be anymore. I am struggling and I want to get better and at the same time I fear it like nothing I have ever feared before.
I want to be able to talk about food or lack of it depending on where I am in the journey, I want to be able to talk about exercise, and body image and all the problems that go along with an eating disorder - the isolation from family and friends, the fear, the same - all of it. And so this old friend is back a place for me to find my place in this world whether it is in an ED world or free from those chains I guess time will tell!