Thursday, September 11, 2014

I don't fit in here

Sometimes I just question where I fit in...
I can tell you where it wasn't!


As J and I walked the poodle around from vendor to vendor on a 90 degree day I kept taking my flip flops off and checking the pavement. If there was a vendor I wanted to speak with and they had shade I checked that pavement too otherwise I just sent J and the poodle off to some grass.

Now I'm STILL on crutches (perhaps a story for another day) so maybe people thought it had something to do with that. But I got the strangest looks :-/ and 2 completely separate people came up to me and asked me what I was doing and when I told them I was checking to see if the pavement was too hot for the poodle's feet well one laughed at me and one looked at me like I was nuts. 

I can't imagine their poor dogs feet :-( 

But it was a very cute day and the poodle came in VERY last in a whipped cream eating contest... He was in the first heat and the second heat was done and he just gave up and realized he doesn't like whipped cream and walked away! FYI he also hated the sac race and I didn't take any pictures because I was too busy saving my baby (people falling is not that therapy dogs idea of fun)

But he quite loved having his picture taken in front of the yelp wall
Have you done anything fun with your pet or partner lately?

Friday, August 22, 2014

Fair weekend

This weekend is the 4-H fair. Every year I look forward to volunteering and working it... This year notsomuch --- I am STILL on crutches (26 weeks for those keeping track which I certainly am). There won't be walking around or checking out the sights there will just be doing what I was brought there to do. 

And... It's raining today! And... It's an outdoor show... And... My outfit for today included a white shirt! I'll be rethinking that!

What are your weekend plans? 

Monday, July 28, 2014

8 is enough

Wednesday I went to my 8th funeral this year.

My father's
It was his 79th birthday. I spent the morning with him and as I left he called me back to kiss him goodbye. 

What! A! Gift!!! 

I will always remember that the last thing I said to him was I love you, and the last thing I did for him was kiss him goodbye. 

I was excited for his birthday this year. I had spoiled him with food and booze and scratch tickets. I told everyone I ran into "it's my dads birthday" 

We have a difficult past but we've spent the last year and a half loving one another. I will miss him SO much, and I can only hope that he and my mom are dancing among the stars.

There's something very lonely (even while surrounded) about being an "orphan"

I had leader of the band sung at his funeral and really "papa I don't think I said I love you near enough"...

Go hug someone you love

Monday, June 23, 2014


Name Your Favorite…

Person: living? That'd be J. Unless you want to count the poodle as a person... Then J is bumped down a notch

Color: it's been pink forever but I'm really loving pastel aqua and peaches lately

Food: Italian ice

Smell: the fairgrounds. Sort of like horse manure, dirt, dust, grass, fresh hay, shavings and home all mixed together 

Book: skeezer a dog with a mission. It's the reason I have a therapy dog

Movie: hmmm I really liked the colors in oz the great and powerful 

Time of day: when I first wake up and just when I'm going to sleep are tied

Day of week: Sundays 

Things to do when bored: crochet, organize photos, clean

Celebrity: secretariat

Drink: water with fruit in it

TV show: lately I'm all about Big Bang theory 

Fruit: what ever we just went to the orchard and picked, in the winter grapefruit 

Vegetable: carrots

Store/shop: etsy

Workout: boxing

Quote: it's always been "the only way around is through"

Potato chip flavor: hate hate hate potato chips! Don't like finger foods and despise my hands getting greasy

Meal of the day: 

Ice cream: I'm more of an Italian ice fan... Vegan ice cream isn't really worth the calories IMO 

Season: late spring and summer

Dessert: watermelon

Life hack: I don't know that this is my favorite but it's pretty cool!

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Silly questions

1. What are you wearing?

 White tank with really pretty crochet in the back, black yoga pants with gold filigree painted at the bottom of the left leg and the ever present compression sock 

2. Ever been in love?

 Yes. With my husband. My horse Needles, my poodle, my kitty Tiki!

3. Ever had a terrible breakup?

 Oh yes. The break-up with the cab driver from Kentucky - long story short he left me for his step sister (truth)

4. How tall are you?

 5' 4" 

5. How much do you weigh?

 Not answering 

6. Any tattoos?

 Yup, I've got my momma's wings on the back if my neck and plans for 2 more once I'm a little more mobile

7.  Any piercings?

 My ears

8. Favorite song?

 Currently? All of me

9. Quality you’d look for in a partner?

 Friendship - my husband is my best friend and without that I think we'd have nothing

10.  Favorite quote?

 "The only way around is through"

11. Favorite actor?

 I don't have one

12. Loud music or soft?

 Soft everything UNLESS I'm in a class at the gym then it's all loud!!!

13. Where do you go when you’re sad?

 If I'm mobile? For a run or a good heavy bag class or spin! Now? I just watch another tv show

14.  How long does it take for you to get ready in the morning?

 Depending on if I'm giving myself a facial or not (today I am) anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour)

15. Every been in a physical fight?

 Nope but I wouldn't hesitate if someone I love needed me

16. Turn on?


17.  Turn off?


18.  Fears?

 Being trapped

19.  Last thing that made you cry?


20. Last time you said you loved someone?

 About 3 minutes ago to the poodle and about 500 times already today to him

21. Meaning behind your YouTube name?

 It's alwaysjoy - a reminder that my name is my name and not a command

22. The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

 It was Laura - she's one of my dearest friends and the person I am most honest to.

23. Favorite food?


24.  Place you want to visit?

 Disney - I need some lighthearted child like happiness

25.  Do you have a crush?

 I have love 

26. Last time you kissed someone?

 Last night when J got home

27. Last time you were insulted?

 I think my insults come from my own insecurities so who knows when one was actually real

28.  Favorite piece of jewelry?

 The diamond that was my moms and before that in my fathers family I treasure it! 

29. Who should answer these questions next?

 Anyone who wants 

Monday, April 07, 2014

All the world is a...


Well at least it is for me. Here it is 3:00am and I'm still wide awake. Why you wonder? Easy, anxiety & pain. And seriously I could easily do without both!

I realize that in the grand scheme of things being stuck on crutches is nothing but at almost 5 weeks in I'M GOING NUTS! And then I feel guilty... I have friends who have lost spouses and fathers and uncles and and and... I have sent out more sympathy cards in the last month than I think in any other time of my life. 

Tomorrow I go for another MRI of my stupid hip (to see if when I fell a couple weeks ago caused damage). And Wednesday is the ortho and really I look forward to them because what else do I do? Sit home and watch dance moms, some ranch show (I like it I think it begins with a b) barry'd treasure and storage wars. Yup that's what my life is reduced to ooh and if I'm not in too much pain I crutch walk down 4 houses and back and that has me huffing and puffing and sweating like I've just run the longest race of my life...

4 walls you can only stick in them so long :-(.

I'm not a very cheery person right now so lets see if I can at least find you a cute pic or 2 on my dying phone
It's the best I've got unless you want a 50000th pic of the poodle... It's a painting I made for my niece - I'm not sure if she actually liked it :-/

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