The littlest things will set me off... And I'll purge. It's nobody and nothing's fault other than my own and I own that. The other day I was fine - nothing happened other than body image (omg I seriously hate body image issues) and I decided I needed to purge (ok brain we really need to work on this) and I did after I did I looked down and my moms diamond was missing from my finger and the ONLY thing I could think was I flushed it I lost my mind. Well I hadn't lost it it'd fallen off in the kitchen (I found it on the floor)
Will I learn? Will that fear keep me from purging another day? I hope so!
+++have you ever lost something very precious? Did you get it back?+++
Even years after having had my ED, I sitll have body image issues. The difference is that I just don't dwell on them and I accept myself as I am, so much more. I have to, I have no choice!
ReplyDeleteI just read your comment on my blog. MY GOODNESS, not such a good day yesterday? I hope your sister is ok, and your finger is better (true story, Nick sliced his fingers yesterday and work and almost had to get stitches....kind of ironic!).